Naruto.... The anime/manga that actually saved me from depression...

Hi all,

So as written from my title, I did suffered depression a long time ago... I guess I was still young and there was so much going through my life that I got so depressed and so sad with life... Yeah, I was deeply heartbroken and I felt like it was the end of the world...

Thank god, I was introduced to Naruto and since it was the beginning of the anime, I decided to go on and watch it. Best decision I've ever made and till now, I still follow it... Naruto inspires me and he made me realised that I have so much blessings in my life. He made me realise that loneliness was the most painful thing in life, yes, I do feel lonely at times but I do have friends and families who love me and care for me. Naruto had no one, his parents sacrifice themselves in order to save the village, and all his friends initially hated him because he has the Kyuubi until he met Iruka-sensei... That's when the story kick off... Highly recommended and I'm sure you won't be disappointed...

Anyways, I just finish watching Naruto's latest episode, it was obviously a filler, but the ending, just made me think and really made me wish that Naruto would end with a happy ending just exactly like in the picture...

Thank you Masashi Kishimoto for creating naruto because Naruto has made me who I am today, to be strong and I lived my 'ninja' way... He was my motivation and my saviour in life... 


So my dear friends, if you ever do feel sad and depressed in life, remember, it is not the end of the world, life is filled with beautiful colours, sometimes we'll just forget that... Maybe you could even try start watching Naruto, you'll understand what I mean :)


That's all from me!


Xoxo,
Annie May

Feeling Alone?

Hey guys,

Wow! Double posts in one day... Haha, so I was talking to my sister just now and we were just talking about how we feel so alone and an outcast at times. Have you ever felt that? That feeling when you feel that your friends don't really want you to be with them or when you feel you have no-one in the world to talk to.

I do feel those feelings at times but I'm grateful that I have my sister and some of my best friends to talk to when-ever I go down that sudden depression road. But sometimes, we just have to set some positive energy to ourselves. We have to let ourself know that we're not perfect and we're not alone in life. We're just only human.

Friends come and go, but when you do meet that special friend in your life, you'll know that even if you guys don't talk for quite some time, you both can easily meet and can talk for hours and hours, even days without realising it! That special friend knows who you are, what's crazy about you and sure there'll be some bad traits there, but that special friend will accept and love you for who you are.

I found my special friends, and I know some people are still in the journey in finding that special someone. I believe God has created a destiny for us and wants us to do some trial and errors in our life, before showing us the true blessings he had prepared for us. However, even if you haven't found that special friend yet, whenever you feel sad or when life feels unfair, think about the blessings you already have. Your family, the shelter and food you can afford, the education you have a chance to have, to be able to live... There are people out there, who are less fortunate but still holds a smile in their face, who still live life like there's no tomorrow. They can be happy, why can't you?

My thoughts from this post is that Life is beautiful, we just have to open our eyes and our hearts to realise it. We are never alone, we always have someone who will love and care about us, be it family or friends, and even God. So, if you ever feel alone and sad, be strong and think about the happy things that have occurred in  your life.

I'm not saying I'm right but those are my thoughts... Feel free to share your thoughts... :)

That's all for today!

Xoxo,
Annie May

Tiramisu Recipe

Hey guys!

Yayyy to being Tiramisu lovers! I started to love baking at the start of this year, baking really does relieve my stress and makes me happy and this was the first dessert I made (which does not require any baking at all!). 

It's simple, easy and yummy! The first comment I got from this Tiramisu was "OMG! It tastes like heaven!", you just have to love that comment. Now, the recipe is not my own. I got it from my aunt who is an AWESOME cook, I swear her food is AMAZING but I think this recipe was obtained from another source? 

Anyways, I believe sharing is caring and so; Here is the recipe I used to make my tiramisu:

TIRAMISU

Ingredients:

500g Mascarpone

125g Icing sugar

3 egg yolks, beaten

3 egg whites

125 ml strong black coffee and Tia Maria/ Baileys

2 plain sponge cakes (or you could use ladyfingers/ sponge fingers)

Cocoa powder

Method:

1) Combine the mascarpone and sugar; then stir in the egg yolks.

2) In a separate bowl, beat the egg whites until a soft peak stage (WARNING: This is tiring if you are doing this step manually).

3) Fold in the mascarpone mixture into the egg white mixture.

4) Now, put one layer of the sponge cake into a glass bowl, and sprinkle the Tia maria and coffee over the sponge cake layer.

5) Then, spread the mascarpone mixture over the sponge layer.

6) Repeat Step (4) and (5) with the second sponge layer on top of the first one.

7) Refrigerate overnight.

8) You can sprinkle some cocoa powder over the top of your tiramisu to give it that extra pop!

This is my first time putting up a recipe online. So if you have any questions or you're not sure of any steps, do comment below and I'll get back to you soon!

That's all for now!

Xoxo,

Annie May

I'm Back... =)

Hi all!

I decided to come back to blogging and hopefully I'll be blogging more frequently than how I use to...

I want to take this opportunity to show you the food I cook, the photos I take and the adventures I go through with life. So I re-live this blog by creating a new look and HOPEFULLY I'll be more up-to-date than how I was before....

So that's all for now!

See you soon!

Xoxo,
Annie May

Life... as it is....

Hello hello to whoever still reads this,

Hahaha, this blog is so boring coz i just dont update it! Well, i only write when i feel like it so yeah, whenever i write, it will be filled with emotions.... Today, I dont know what im feeling actually... Whether its tiredness, or just lazy, i dont know either...

Recently, i've been so busy doing my project that i feel life just flies like that, I havent enjoyed myself as how I used to before... I guess thats how projects and the working life is suppose to be... I feel like I just wanna hurry up with this studies and go back home to work... Ask mom and dad to retire whereas I bring the rice back home... I have high ambitions as before, but engineering is getting so boring to me... I guess it isnt what i really wanted to do? All my friends tell me 'WHY?' because they all say i have the brains and knowledge and understanding to do engineering. but all the while, ive always have the passion to do something that involves meeting different cultures, flying to different countries for work instead... I really like the thought of being a diplomat, but that wouldnt be the case when i get married and have kids right?

Hahaha... I feel like that working life is so near that i dont know what to do man... Its awesome but at the same time, scary.... Anyways, right now, Im in Part 3 of my design project and ive being lazing around! I know in the next week, i'll be stressed out as how i usually am and go like 'OMG!!!!', then stay up over the night trying to finish stuff before the dateline... I guess, thats how i m and i can never change eventho i tell myself 1000000000x! OH WELLS!!!

Back to blurting my life out into this blog, im thinking of creating a blog that involves cooking and photography and travelling... Those are the passions in my life, if only i have the time and money to do those... Ohhh, life would be awesome... Cooking for the person i love, creating new recipes, eating good foood..... Photography, creating beautiful memories, My friend once told me i have the eye but unfortunately i dont know how to edit pictures, ive been wanting to learn but where is the time?! I love pictures and i love looking at shots my friends have done... Travelling, words cannot describe my LOVE to travel, to be able to see the world, understand their culture, i have friends who just travel like that, wonder where they get the money from! I would love it if i could just fly off to any countries and try EVERYTHING of that culture... love it! Im so blessed that i get to come to the UK to study, and explore the beauty of Europe... My goal for now, to travel around the whole world by 2030.... :) I want to go to at least ONE country from each continent: Ive done Asia (obviously thts where i live), Europe, Africa, Australia.... Ohhh, how i wish i could do America, head over to Canada, and then the USA and then Mexico and different parts of South America (Brazil, Argentina, Costa Rica).... I love how those guides shows u around in TV, and i wish to be one... but can a bruneian really become one? I dont know as well... hahahaa...

Anyways, today's post doesnt have any particular meaning to anything... its just me expressing what i feel right now... Thats it from me...

Ciao,
Annie May xxx

Nothing-ness

You know when you get that feeling of sudden anger and then you regret it later on when you did something stupid... ya, im feeling that now... These tears just keeps running down drop by drop just because i dont know how to fix this...

Life is getting tiring for me, with so much goals and things to do... Exams coming up soon, and im no where near tht point, projects and labs, the work load, its alot but im still slacking, everytime when i wana do something, i lose tht motivation.... Piano exam is in March/April and Im due to register inJan but what is my progress now? Did i improve or isit still the same? I feel like such a failure but i feel so tired... I want to stand up but im giving myself excuses to fall down... Its like i dont want to stand up... Temper is getting worse and worse, i cant smile as i used to, those happy and genuine smiles, its almost over, its almost gone...

Back then, the happy and patient me, could go around being naive and gullible, enjoying life when i can and suffer at those correct points of time.... I could laugh at small matters, put it behind me and then move on... but now, i see myself as this gloomy emo person, everytime i watch an anime, i feel its such a cool characteristic, but its not me... What i feel now is not tht cool-nesss, i feel lonely... i feel alone in this world... ya, i used to talk about friends and family around me but do i really have those people in my life? would they come to my bedside if i died? yeah, mom and dad would but friends, do i really have those ppl in my life? A lover....Do i really have someone who loves me for who i m? Can they accept this me in their life? These sadness and negativity flowing from this body of mine?

Im crying again now.. but i dont know what to do.... Why did i blew up, why did i get so angry? It was a small matter, and i blame it on my limits, my patience limits but honestly i dont know why... Why did i get angry, why did i get so emotional, its not PMS, if i had PMS, it would totally explain it. but do you know why? Can you give me a reason and explaination? This heart of mine has turned darker and darker... Can i just stab this heart of mine and let the black blood flow out?

*I wrote this as an open diary, if you have any stupid comments, dont bother to write it and keep it in your head/heart, i dont need anything else to make me feel worse, thank u*

Happy Chinese New Year!! Gong Xi Fatt Chai!!

RAWRRR!!! Its the Year of the Tiger!!! =D

Wishing everyone a Happy Chinese New Year and Gong xi Fatt chai! Hope you all will always fa fa chai xD hehehe...

On CNY that day (14/2/2010), it was the same day as valentines day but apparently, none of us have a couple except for WaiLum and Eelin, we basically focus on the greatest day of the year, CNY!! hehhee... Long story short, we had a "fun" evening especially with the funniest yet scariest scenes by Hanley and Hong Men and yes Hong Men "WO JUI SHI ANNIE MAY!!" hoho! xD The nxt day, we went to see fireworks in Chinatown and man was it good, for Manchester, it is quite good... And then ah, in the streets, there's more angmo than chinese, shi bai alr la us~ HAHAHA But its alright, the atmosphere was nice and we get to see Lion dance, It was alright, not too bad but I've already missed Ivan's performance for 4 years already... By the time i go back, im sure he has retired and decided to stop playing... Haha...

Me and a part of the group during CNY... We split into 2 tables so this is the pic taken with the people in my table where we yam sie i think abt 3-4 times and got scolded by the restaurant people. OPPS! haha... And we OWN the whole STREET!! WooHoo!!

BruManch Talentime Trailer is finally out, well out few days ago already la, and if you've never seen me emo, i think i look quite emo here.. Haha.. AWESOME xD http://www.facebook.com/photos.php?id=518011603#!/video/video.php?v=318061057732&subj=815915532&oid=200968439826

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Anyways, its time for me to talk what I've been thinking today... Its the new year and I want to change myself as in dunt say say only but really do do... Today, i went for piano class and I really felt If only I've met this teacher last year instead of the previous one, I think the previous one was just focusing on getting money and not helping me properly, this one taught me techniques to improve myself and actually make me feel there might be hope for me... Time is ticking really fast before the exam comes in September and hopefully I'll be prepared and is able to get through the final stage, Grade 8. Ive been working on this for 1 yr++ now, and i hope It will run smoothly as time pass by.

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My goals for this new year 2010:

1) To get a 1st/ 2:1 for 2nd Yr chemical Engineering

2) To be able to pass my piano grade 8 exam and officially finish the piano grades

3) Lose 8kg to go back to my original weight (before I came to the UK for the 1st time)

4) To understand the meaning of life and to live life with no regrets

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Hahaha~ Easy goals eh? NOT! I'll work hard for those, I'm a living proof that dreams and miracles can come true, and I'll make this happen again... With hard work, determination and great motivation, I'm sure I can encounter whatever obstacles thats blocking my way, push them aside and achieve the goals i desired. I'm here for a reason, and to make my parents proud, I'll do my best...

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My purpose in UK is to study and also to have a different life experience.. yes, Im having a different life experience right now, but if i were to give advise to people, if you're thinking of going to either Aus or UK, I would suggest Aus if you want to enjoy a better life, just because of the UK weather, due to global "COOLING", the weather has been really messed up, the sun could be shining brightly but the air is DAMN COLD, and u'll hate walking around outside, IMAGINE WINTER! And Snow, people, Snow in TV where people seem to enjoy it and playing happily outside, its all A LIE! Yes, you'll feel excited for the 1st time and after tht experience, you'll HATE IT! I swear people did die from the snow, im serious!!! Its because its so slippery, you'll fall and it so hard to walk around, it cause disruptions to your daily life, well, in UK it does whereas in Canada, it snows all the time there, and so they know what to do... Australia is a better weather for us Asians, its easier to adapt there and the holidays in Australia is better, you get to go home for Christmas and New year and CNY!! Whereas us in the UK, yeah, we go back from June- September, but whats there to celebrate? Well, yeah, if you go back to the UK late, we can celebrate Hari Raya but thats not the point.. HAHA!

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I can say at times I do regret coming to the UK, but this is what I wanted initially, I worked hard for it and went through sufferings for it, I've made it here and so I should not regret but work harder and achieve my true goal, a M.Eng Honours Degree in Chemical Engineering and Aim for a good position in one of the ministries of Brunei... I know this might never happen, but i dream to become one of a minister in Brunei, the first Female, Chinese Minister of Brunei... Such ambition.. Hahaha..

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A dream is a dream, and it is the starting point of a goal... My blog is not dead now since I've blogged and so thats all folks! Have a good new year and wishing everyone good health and wealth!

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Xin Nian Kuai Le!

-Annie May-